Broken, timeless tired and lost 19.04.2006
Author: Jeneral // Category:
It was my second YCYP meeting today. On my way in, I met pastor YC and greeted him. We all thanked God for the Good Friday Harvest. Though I was not around, I could see that church had expanded quite a bit based on the stats. I thanked God for the multitude and the more to come.
Before I visited YCYP meeting, I met up with Garnet for dinner. She says it has been 15 days since we last saw each other, I agree. It feels like it has been a long time. We chatted a bit, but sincerely, we have a lot more to chat about.
We had Ps. Chan with us to preach to us the importance of saving our family. As we conquer our sons and daughters, we should conquer our families too. Where better to start than at home right? Not quite. Home could be a touchy place to conquer, but with God’s conquering spirit and victory, I believe God for my Grandmother and father.
Firstly we should be prepared ourselves to change before we go out to change others. There is little point in preaching what we do not believe in and act on it. God has not given me any visions of my children; I'm praying hard and hungering for them everyday.
I am being broken. I'm being to torn apart. I'm supporting too many things already. Full time student and devoted Christian, these 2 priorities are draining me already. Add family and friends and I got my hands full. Now throw in schoolwork stress, less sleep because I wake up earlier to catch the dam bus, competitive environment, family commitments, housework, meeting up with friends and family, I'm underwater already.
The only reason I can think of me still existing is that God is maintains me. At the same time, I'm being broken. I draw enough of his power; I need to supply my own power. I have insufficient time to settle my thoughts, they are being stockpiled and not organised at such a quick pace. Furthermore, I am still assimilating life as a Christian, which required lots of energy. I'm beginning to slip due to insufficient power and focus on every one of them. If I do not do something quick, I will deteriorate.
My current prayer to God; restore me, refresh me and guide me. Teach me to manage my time and seek you approval. Help me to maintain faith in you and in the promise of a breakthrough in my spiritual children and parents and grandparents. Speak to me. Thank you God, Amen.
Signum Crucis
Latin – Sign of the cross
Before I visited YCYP meeting, I met up with Garnet for dinner. She says it has been 15 days since we last saw each other, I agree. It feels like it has been a long time. We chatted a bit, but sincerely, we have a lot more to chat about.
We had Ps. Chan with us to preach to us the importance of saving our family. As we conquer our sons and daughters, we should conquer our families too. Where better to start than at home right? Not quite. Home could be a touchy place to conquer, but with God’s conquering spirit and victory, I believe God for my Grandmother and father.
Firstly we should be prepared ourselves to change before we go out to change others. There is little point in preaching what we do not believe in and act on it. God has not given me any visions of my children; I'm praying hard and hungering for them everyday.
I am being broken. I'm being to torn apart. I'm supporting too many things already. Full time student and devoted Christian, these 2 priorities are draining me already. Add family and friends and I got my hands full. Now throw in schoolwork stress, less sleep because I wake up earlier to catch the dam bus, competitive environment, family commitments, housework, meeting up with friends and family, I'm underwater already.
The only reason I can think of me still existing is that God is maintains me. At the same time, I'm being broken. I draw enough of his power; I need to supply my own power. I have insufficient time to settle my thoughts, they are being stockpiled and not organised at such a quick pace. Furthermore, I am still assimilating life as a Christian, which required lots of energy. I'm beginning to slip due to insufficient power and focus on every one of them. If I do not do something quick, I will deteriorate.
My current prayer to God; restore me, refresh me and guide me. Teach me to manage my time and seek you approval. Help me to maintain faith in you and in the promise of a breakthrough in my spiritual children and parents and grandparents. Speak to me. Thank you God, Amen.
Signum Crucis
Latin – Sign of the cross
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