Expo Work Manual Labour 29.08.06
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I'm just tired.
Today at Expo, we were preparing the stall for sales on Thursday. Meanwhile I did lots of lifting boxes here and there, packing, shifting and tagging the products, getting them ready to be sold. I met some new people, worked with them chatted with them, got to know them better.
Just when your tired, the devil strikes. My tongue went loose. While others have a problem with vulgarities, I have an problem with the truth. When I'm placed into difficult situations, I tend to lie to get out of it. It troubles my conscience so. I feel so guilty, I nailed Jesus to the cross again. It was just a spur of the moment. The question was, "Where are you going, requesting to leave early tomorrow?" I replied Wedding Dinner when I knew that I was going for a YCYPAO 144 Meeting. Why can't I just say I'm going for a gathering of Christians. Would he believe me? Is that a valid reason to go off? Must I have lied?
The answer is no. I haven't lied since God knows when. Literally. Now I started again. I'm not worthy.
Looking at those friendster profiles. Wow, I see others have heaps of friends, tons of testimonials. I feel hurt again, every time I look at them, see their smiling faces, hear their endless chatter, I get jealous. Why can't I be like them too? Sociable, likeable, always in the loop. Maybe I just ain't cut out for the world. I've placed my confidence in friends and relationships and not the Lord again, Forgive me Father, I have sinned. Many at times, I've asked the Lord to be kind and take me in my sleep. I went to the Alter on Sunday to give this area of friends and relationships to the Lord, maybe he ain't pleased. Maybe he has given up on me, maybe, just maybe, he just won't speak with me.
That my dear bloggie, is what that I have been experiencing over the past few weeks. The time which I cannot hear God speak, nor does God speak in his ways. I know for it is written that God speaks when the time is right. I wonder, has silence got to do with any of these?
God, I don't want to doubt you or hurt you more. But God are you asking me to do so? Testing me? I cannot speak any further.
Lord I ask that you speak to me. Lord, bless me expand my territory, give me influence over it, let me harvest some people for you, and let your hand be on me, keep me safe from harm and free from pain.
I'm just tired.
Today at Expo, we were preparing the stall for sales on Thursday. Meanwhile I did lots of lifting boxes here and there, packing, shifting and tagging the products, getting them ready to be sold. I met some new people, worked with them chatted with them, got to know them better.
Just when your tired, the devil strikes. My tongue went loose. While others have a problem with vulgarities, I have an problem with the truth. When I'm placed into difficult situations, I tend to lie to get out of it. It troubles my conscience so. I feel so guilty, I nailed Jesus to the cross again. It was just a spur of the moment. The question was, "Where are you going, requesting to leave early tomorrow?" I replied Wedding Dinner when I knew that I was going for a YCYPAO 144 Meeting. Why can't I just say I'm going for a gathering of Christians. Would he believe me? Is that a valid reason to go off? Must I have lied?
The answer is no. I haven't lied since God knows when. Literally. Now I started again. I'm not worthy.
Looking at those friendster profiles. Wow, I see others have heaps of friends, tons of testimonials. I feel hurt again, every time I look at them, see their smiling faces, hear their endless chatter, I get jealous. Why can't I be like them too? Sociable, likeable, always in the loop. Maybe I just ain't cut out for the world. I've placed my confidence in friends and relationships and not the Lord again, Forgive me Father, I have sinned. Many at times, I've asked the Lord to be kind and take me in my sleep. I went to the Alter on Sunday to give this area of friends and relationships to the Lord, maybe he ain't pleased. Maybe he has given up on me, maybe, just maybe, he just won't speak with me.
That my dear bloggie, is what that I have been experiencing over the past few weeks. The time which I cannot hear God speak, nor does God speak in his ways. I know for it is written that God speaks when the time is right. I wonder, has silence got to do with any of these?
God, I don't want to doubt you or hurt you more. But God are you asking me to do so? Testing me? I cannot speak any further.
Lord I ask that you speak to me. Lord, bless me expand my territory, give me influence over it, let me harvest some people for you, and let your hand be on me, keep me safe from harm and free from pain.
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