Foolish me, no food, no good 08.08.2006
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I miss my princess. Ha-ha, weird way to start my post, but really I do. Although I met her for a few days last week, Monday, Thursday and Friday; somehow, I still kind of miss her. Even thought she says I cannot miss her cause I have not been making an effort to spend time with her. Sometimes, I wonder again if she appreciates the time we spend together.
I applied something I learnt from class yesterday and many days before. I do not usually eat breakfast, finished everything (presentation, discussion) so late I skipped lunch, went meet Leo, Angie, Ed and Jovi at library. That evening we had “day of his power” at the indoor stadium and we were meeting before we got there. We took so long in the library; I did not have time to eat either. That resulted in a very sleepy, lethargic, and grumpy me
Reason: no food
Explanation: no glucose to stimulate the body to produce insulin, body starts breaking down fats for energy. Blood ketones (substance when fats break down) levels detected, body instructed to conserve energy since there is no food. Thyroid gland reduces production of thyroid hormones which regulate metabolism and slows down metabolism resulting in me being sleepy, lethargic, faint and hungry.
I wonder if I can slow down so much that I go into a coma, a long sleep. I do not want to wake up; it is a nightmare over here. When I came to know the Lord, I had no impression of what I wanted him for, for some it is help in life, for others it is for release from sins and of course there is eternal life. But I do not want to live forever; in fact, just enough is good for me.
God, if you will not tell me your plan and answer me what need I do to serve your kingdom, why am I here. Why am I here, when you have other fantastic people serving you to reach out to others, here I am inefficient, ineffective and lost. Living for the Lord, Lord is there any reason to live at all when I’m not being spoken to by you. I mean life seems so meaningless when you compare things to God. To God, everything must be perfect, man is not perfect so what are we doing? Reminds me of practice makes perfect, if nobody is perfect, why practice?
Lord I rather you claim me sooner than letting me stay here without your purpose for me and directions to fulfil such a purpose. Let my metabolism slow till I fall asleep; let me go in a peaceful manner. I am so bloody sleep and grumpy. End post
I applied something I learnt from class yesterday and many days before. I do not usually eat breakfast, finished everything (presentation, discussion) so late I skipped lunch, went meet Leo, Angie, Ed and Jovi at library. That evening we had “day of his power” at the indoor stadium and we were meeting before we got there. We took so long in the library; I did not have time to eat either. That resulted in a very sleepy, lethargic, and grumpy me
Reason: no food
Explanation: no glucose to stimulate the body to produce insulin, body starts breaking down fats for energy. Blood ketones (substance when fats break down) levels detected, body instructed to conserve energy since there is no food. Thyroid gland reduces production of thyroid hormones which regulate metabolism and slows down metabolism resulting in me being sleepy, lethargic, faint and hungry.
I wonder if I can slow down so much that I go into a coma, a long sleep. I do not want to wake up; it is a nightmare over here. When I came to know the Lord, I had no impression of what I wanted him for, for some it is help in life, for others it is for release from sins and of course there is eternal life. But I do not want to live forever; in fact, just enough is good for me.
God, if you will not tell me your plan and answer me what need I do to serve your kingdom, why am I here. Why am I here, when you have other fantastic people serving you to reach out to others, here I am inefficient, ineffective and lost. Living for the Lord, Lord is there any reason to live at all when I’m not being spoken to by you. I mean life seems so meaningless when you compare things to God. To God, everything must be perfect, man is not perfect so what are we doing? Reminds me of practice makes perfect, if nobody is perfect, why practice?
Lord I rather you claim me sooner than letting me stay here without your purpose for me and directions to fulfil such a purpose. Let my metabolism slow till I fall asleep; let me go in a peaceful manner. I am so bloody sleep and grumpy. End post
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