Labour Day Nightmares
Author: Jeneral // Category:
I haven't had a sleepless night since I was in kidergarden to primary 3. After that I always found a way to sleep, the tiredness of school/outings/work always kept me sleepy. Just today, after the lost of a decitful friend (my mask), I start May anew.
Terrible thing is that I cannot sleep, no matter how tired I am. Those worries found a way into my sleep. I keep having nightmares, each one worse than the last. I keep seeing the darker side of human nature. I wonder if this is what God wants me to see? I don't even fathom what he thinks. All I know is his sight will always be greater than mine.
After every reoccuring nightmare, I wake up with the revelation of Christ in mind, the pain he felt, the shame the people put on him, I just cannot fathom what life would be like for him. As I wake up with that revelation, I still shake and tell myself, God is with me, I need not fear! I cannot seem to reassure myself as the next nightmare hits with a greater darkness. God save me!
Today, I will be going down to the Istana, have a look around. It is an open house there. Maybe I will see the president?
Shortly after, will be going out with Garnet. I wonder how her outing with her friends have been planned? I don't want to be the extra in the crowd. Excited to see her later!
Like JR Tolkien's LOTR "One Ring," it was a nessary evil to cast it down into the pits of mount doom. I think I was supposed to survive and see the kingdom of Gondor, Rohan and Shire restored. I think I was to see the elfs leave for the west. Yet, now I am stuck on the summit of mount doom waiting for a volcano to errupt. What I see that will save me is that God change the minds and hearts of the fellowship I betrayed and come claim me.
Signum Crucis - Sign of the Cross
Terrible thing is that I cannot sleep, no matter how tired I am. Those worries found a way into my sleep. I keep having nightmares, each one worse than the last. I keep seeing the darker side of human nature. I wonder if this is what God wants me to see? I don't even fathom what he thinks. All I know is his sight will always be greater than mine.
After every reoccuring nightmare, I wake up with the revelation of Christ in mind, the pain he felt, the shame the people put on him, I just cannot fathom what life would be like for him. As I wake up with that revelation, I still shake and tell myself, God is with me, I need not fear! I cannot seem to reassure myself as the next nightmare hits with a greater darkness. God save me!
Today, I will be going down to the Istana, have a look around. It is an open house there. Maybe I will see the president?
Shortly after, will be going out with Garnet. I wonder how her outing with her friends have been planned? I don't want to be the extra in the crowd. Excited to see her later!
Like JR Tolkien's LOTR "One Ring," it was a nessary evil to cast it down into the pits of mount doom. I think I was supposed to survive and see the kingdom of Gondor, Rohan and Shire restored. I think I was to see the elfs leave for the west. Yet, now I am stuck on the summit of mount doom waiting for a volcano to errupt. What I see that will save me is that God change the minds and hearts of the fellowship I betrayed and come claim me.
Signum Crucis - Sign of the Cross
John.. John... Maybe you shouldn't mask your feelings when you're with friends. (That includes me) We all need a mask sometimes. Its not a bad thing, neither is it a good thing to have it up all the time.